"I don't care what we've both been through. Till the end, my heart belongs to you..." ~From the English song "My Heart Belongs To You" by Peabo Bryson and Jim Brickman
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Though rarely as he could, Hikari soon found himself smiling as he watched Kagura enjoy the food in front of her that day. Well, he just wanted the company of someone that day and for some reason, he chose to be with Kagura.
Wait a minute... Who was he kidding? Of course, he would choose her. He would always do.
Well, there was nothing wrong with that, right?
"What's wrong, Hikari? Aren't you hungry?"
That question brought him out from his musings and smiled at Kagura who was only looking at him with that innocent curiosity in her eyes. Even though ten years had passed, it seemed that Kagura's eyes would never change the way they look at people.
Or perhaps, he was the only one who noticed that.
"Just finish what you're eating. Don't mind me, okay?" he said and started enjoying himself with the ice cream sundae he ordered.
It had been weeks since their fight with the Archduke and honestly speaking, it was a refreshing feeling. It had been a long while since he was able to do that. And together with Kagura, as well.
Come to think of it, things became completely different after that. He ended up hanging out with Kagura more often than usual. Though he would always reason that he wanted some company and Kagura would be the perfect one for that, there was something else that he wanted to say to her.
Something that he wanted to let her know and was keeping in his heart for so long.
"Hikari!"
That call startled him and made him blink a few times before facing the source of it. When he looked up, he saw Kagura pouting as she remained staring at him. This time, her eyes were laced with concern and obvious worry.
"I'm sorry," was all that he could say to her.
Though it was a given that he wasn't much of a talkative person, for some reason, this girl could really make him tongue-tied. But this was something to be expected, right?
"You're really acting weird," Kagura commented but she still managed to continue eating her parfait next. Soon after, however, she placed the spoon down and faced Hikari. "Is there something bothering you, Hikari?"
That made him speechless. He even looked at Kagura who was now eyeing him with an expression that would take no for an answer. But could he really tell it to her at this time?
"It's okay if you don't want to say it now. I know you're not the talkative type when it comes to the things that worry you," she said that soon broke the silence between them.
Inwardly, her words only made him groan. Great, now he was seriously ruining it for both of them.
"Say, Hikari..." Kagura started, continuing her earlier words. Hikari shifted his focus to her once again, hoping this time, he could finally muster the courage he needed. "Was it something about the battle with the Archduke that bothers you right now?"
Hikari shook his head before he knew it, almost immediately answering Kagura's question. But that only made her frown for reasons unknown and he wanted to find out why she would do that.
"Then what is it?" she asked in a way that was really trying to coax him to answer her question truthfully.
That thought only made Hikari smile and shake his head in amusement. "You're really persistent, aren't you?"
"Well, I can't think of a way to make you tell me what bothers you. You don't usually ask me to accompany you in anything almost everyday, you know. Even when we were kids."
It was the truth. But he wasn't all that surprise with what she observed about him. In some ways, Kagura could be really perceptive when she wanted to.
"Would it be weird of me if I tell you that... I just wanted to spend time with you?" Great. Does he really have to state his point with a question? Now this was seriously hopeless, considering that he was the intellectual one in the group.
But soon after, he noticed that Kagura didn't say anything about it. When he faced her, he suddenly felt his heart skipped a beat upon seeing her almost shocked expression. Wait, did he say something bad?
"Kagura? Are you okay?"
Hikari saw her getting startled, as if waking up from a trance. She smiled at him after that, but it seemed to be a bit forced.
"I'm okay. I just... got surprised with what you said." Though said awkwardly, it was a little blunt, in his opinion. "But... it made me happy."
Now it was his turn to be shocked. His eyes widened slightly as he faced Kagura who was now smiling at him. Now, he doesn't understand what was going on.
"Even though I'm still acting childishly after all these years," Kagura continued without looking away from him. "You still stayed with me. Imagination or no imagination... You remained to be a great friend."
Well, that wasn't what he was expecting from her. But as long as he won't be able to do anything to say the words he was still keeping in his heart, nothing would happen at all. "Kagura-"
But his words were cut off with a look from Kagura that seemed to be imploring him to listen first to what she was going to say. He kept quiet and stared intently at her, letting her know that he got her message. She smiled soon after.
"But you know, Hikari... One day, something will change about us. I know it. For now, I think we should just enjoy what we have."
More than ever, Hikari wasn't able to understand Kagura's words that seemed to have been said innocently. But if he would look at it carefully, there seemed to be a depth in it. He just have to know the real meaning that those words held.
And yet, no matter how confusing Kagura could become for him, he would remain the same way for her. The truth that remained concealed in his heart would never disappear... until the time comes that he would finally utter the words to the only person whom he wanted to take care of and cherish.
He would wait... whatever it takes.
For Kagura to finally know his feelings for her.
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There you go! My first ToQger fanfiction and it's about my OTP from that series. I'm happy that I was able to write this, even though my mind is still in pieces for various reasons I don't want to specify. Seriously speaking.
Thanks for reading, everyone! Till next time!
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